Long Overdue

It's Christmas break again & I'm so fcking happy (: We've always looked forward to the weekend, but now we have one month to be lazy & just do whatever we want! This "finals week" was pretty much ...chill. 3 day sleepover, "kairos", outings, middle parts, CRUstmas, chongalicious & last minute studying. We survived one semester together. Hopefully we'll get through another one next year. School's on pause, now let the fun begin. Reunion, kick backs, road trips, outings and Disneyland? Yes, please.

p.s. I Am Sasha Fierce is the best sht ever. Listen & love it.

Rewind

Back to square one. I knew it would just come & sneak up on me. Bad idea just staying here 'cause what else is there to do but think? I thought too much, even when it was over. It won't go away completely, but I'm slowly getting over it. It just sucks to know I'm the only one who shows it. That's what hurts the most. I don't know what I want. Actually I do. I want things to go back to normal, but I know that'll never happen. I guess I thought that things would get better after it was done & over with, but it just got worse. A lot of people are here to help me get through it & I'm so thankful, I don't know what the fuck I would do without them. So thank you for keeping my head up & speaking the truth. I pretty much deleted most of everything to get over things more quickly. It's helping, I'm healing. Leona Lewis that genius! No emo though. I have to just focus on what's important at the moment. What used to be one of my main priorities is slowly becoming one of the last things on my mind. There's no use trying to make something happen, when there's nothing to work with. It was good while it lasted & that's all I can ask for.

Most of you know what this concerns. It's super repetitive, but the venting stage will be done before Thanksgiving [: yay shopping.

Done.

I've realized that people change & I'm okay with that. But not over a span of week. I really hate it when people speak before they think. They say things that aren't true, but want to place blame on the other person. And I'm not really into being treated like that. People you thought were so amazing one day, turn into an asshole another day. I'm not one to just accept it, but I'm not the one to change it either. People separate & I can deal with that. Just don't agree to stay on good terms when you've spoken to me in a way that was disrespectful. At least give me that. I don't know where you went, but you disappeared on me. I've lost hope & now I'm ready to move on without you.

I'm gonna accept the love I think I deserve, & it's not gonna come from you.

Venting time over :]

Scattered

I've noticed that I'm always happy when it's Friday until Sunday night...then when I'm back @ msmc I'm so sad haha Plus, my face breaks out & clears up during the weekend. That explains a lot. Great observation. School's just too much right now & I'm never in the mood to study. Like today. I'm only thinking about Christmas break. Oh & Disneyland. We all look forward to the fun stuff & get totally distracted from what we're supposed to be focusing on. It's so bad, but suprisingly we get things done eventually. This is really repetitive, but I miss high school. Not the work, but compared to now, I really wish it was as easy as high school. But the thing I really miss is seeing everyone everyday. I'm still getting used to it. After 3 months of school it still hasn't registered that most of these people aren't spending 9+ hours a day with me. I still keep in touch with a few of them, & we pretty much talk about the same things. But it's not the same. We should just all have a reunion! 5 month reunion! I was looking at pictures from Senior Year. Just randomly going through them, the ones on my computer, the ones on facebook & the ones on my wall & I really, really wanna go back to high school. It's fun in college, but I haven't really transitioned yet. Hopefully I will soon. Oh & you know what else I did? I took out the Group Prom Picture from my desk drawer (which belong to Claudz & Nick, haha I'll give em to you guys soon!) & I just stared at it for a good 10 min. Okay no more reminiscing, time to study! Now that I've gotten all that off my chest, time to concentrate at 12am! Woo ♥

Greaaat

It's almost halloween, i don't really celebrate the holiday, but yay costume. Hopefully we'll have something to do, or imma smack a bitch! $64 wasted? i don't think so. haha I've noticed that whenever i'm on the mountain i always want to come home early on Friday, then stay home forever on Sunday. All i've been thinking about is Christmas break, minus the finals before we're off the mountain for 1 month :] of & fyi there was a fire last Thursday in the morning. Pretty intense, but then we were given a day off of school the same day. This week has been the chillest week we've had in a long time because the following weeks to come are gonna be super hectic. Can't wait! There's just a lot going on right now and me trying to balance everything..i mean EVERYTHING is taking up most of my time & energy. Lastly, all i gotta say is "l-word." People needa just think about others before they start complaining. We're not as expressive as you...so get over it...but just know i still l-word you. promise. <333333

if you're confused. good. if you wanna know what's up. ask. don't assume. thank you!

Survived!

I survived knott's scary farm, bitches. Now time to man-up for universal so i won't shit bricks [:

Retarded love <3

Pretty much Saturday made me a happy girl :] I'm so glad justin picked 4;10 to watch the movie or we wouldn't have seen the people we were used to see everyday. We were even talking about it in the car about how we don't talk to as many people from providence as we used to...& we were kinda okay with it. Only some people, the close ones still matter. And whatta coincidence we see michael, jerrick, ryan & soo young. Me & justin were set on watching Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist which is the cutest movie ever! I'm gonna marry michael cera ;]

Then more surprises come! claudzgirlfriendyeyurlightsister, nikkay & seanay-nay came too! The best things in life are unexpected to be honest. As corny as that may sound, it's true. So if you don't agree then fck you . And if you do good job! Then after the movie we went "clothes shopping" lol then we ate at Ohana. Omg more happiness. Then me & justin decided to go with claudz to meet up with nick & matt at the eagle rock music festival. I've lived in eagle rock since forever & this year I've finally decided to go it. It's pretty good actually. Then i meet matt's cousin, the little cutie asked me to sing lol so i couldn't say no. It was a good day to start & end the weekend. Now I'm back at school waiting for October 15. yay midsemester break, numero seis, & Knott's Scary Farm (no universal). I'm fcking excited but at the same time i'm scared shitless haha so pray for us. thank you.

Thank you claudz! Yay more bonding.

goodbye summer

Ugh. It hasn't registered that summer's over & i've already been in school for a week. We wanna get off the mountain ASAP...& we've only been here since tuesday. We're having a sleepover today! Because after all the ghost stories nobody wants to be alone. MAN UP! gah. lol & yay everyone has webcams. So why do we all miss each other when we can see each other everyday! Oh we went shopping yesterday. It was great. We stayed there for like 4 hours & shopped like crazy. We pretty much needa buy something everytime we go to the promenade. So we needa learn self-control.

We wanna stay off the mountain for as long as we can, but that isn't possible. We needa find more ways to travel. Oh & good news is tomorrow we have class at 11:20AM. This is the only night we getta sleep in. Sucks. Then every day other than thursdays, we gotta wake up before 8AM. Lucky us. So visit us on the Mount 'cause we'll love you lol & if you drive us off the mountain even better!

& Happy Birthday to Elisha! LOVE YOU

I hope you have an amazing day.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMO!!! (on friday)

Even though she's on crack 24/7 I still love her.

She got the boys lining up at MSMC [; hahah jk

Well Happy Legal Day, Whore. LOVE YOU .

& be happy you got a shoutout [:

finally!

woo i got a new laptop for school. it's pretty cute. i was gonna get the touch screen one but i figured it would break quicker. so here's my new & improved laptop. sadly i can't use it yet 'cause i don't have the code for the internet. till tomorrow. but finally i won't have to wait forever for youtube videos to load. WOO success.

& also yay to the olympics. michael phelps is sooooo..you decide. i love watching the olympics, strictly swimming, gymnastics & maybe running. now i have something to do since it's on 24/7. like the opening was so trippy. i watched 30 min of it & i was done. but those 30 min were really good.

oh heart to hearts. more of that to come in the coming months.

there is nothing to do this week but hopefully next week'll be better. aroma date. homecoming=]<3.>

yay.

watched pineapple express with the world. good stuff. first & last time you'll ever hear this from me but JAMES FRANCO LOOKED UGLY in the movie. but he was the best part of the movie nonetheless. but take a look...

beautiful transformation lol but the movie is worth watching so watch it. & hopefully tomorrow i'll get to see him in person ish on the jimmy kimmel show. thank you carpz! woo can't wait. ew all i keep thinking about is school coming up which sucks. it's coming too soon! if only i chose ucr i woulda been going back late in september. but too late for that. hopefully these last few weeks'll be good. & as of now, they've been fun. woo next week, can't wait for that [:

bonding

today me & my mama bonded. it was great actually lol woke up earlier than usual 'cause i was gonna get a haircute . now it's short as can be. forreal. but it'll take some time to get used to. then i had to get like an HPV & TB shot. not cute. they hurt like a btch. lol still does. but i got over it. one more tomorrow! woo. then to make up for the shots we went college shopping. i feel accomplished. but ew 20 days till school starts. where has summer gone? hopefully pineapple express'll make up for the end of summer. OR seeing all my asian lovers before school starts.

homecoming

got bored so i made this. whatta surprise!

so i just got back from the caribbean. suprisingly, it was fun & i kinda miss it. it was one of the best vacations i've been on & i've been on plenty. oh & also in those 2 weeks i haven't swam that much in my life. so as some of you know....i've gone like 10 shades darker :] mission accomplished! soo since i've been back, which was like 3 days ago, i was welcomed with a kickback. it was good to just do whatever. not to extremes, but just the right amount. bumperstickers on facebook will explain the night ;] hopefully more of those to come, but in the meantime i needa pass the time by going out 'cause school is coming up! ew. so someone plan something thank you.