Rewind

Back to square one. I knew it would just come & sneak up on me. Bad idea just staying here 'cause what else is there to do but think? I thought too much, even when it was over. It won't go away completely, but I'm slowly getting over it. It just sucks to know I'm the only one who shows it. That's what hurts the most. I don't know what I want. Actually I do. I want things to go back to normal, but I know that'll never happen. I guess I thought that things would get better after it was done & over with, but it just got worse. A lot of people are here to help me get through it & I'm so thankful, I don't know what the fuck I would do without them. So thank you for keeping my head up & speaking the truth. I pretty much deleted most of everything to get over things more quickly. It's helping, I'm healing. Leona Lewis that genius! No emo though. I have to just focus on what's important at the moment. What used to be one of my main priorities is slowly becoming one of the last things on my mind. There's no use trying to make something happen, when there's nothing to work with. It was good while it lasted & that's all I can ask for.

Most of you know what this concerns. It's super repetitive, but the venting stage will be done before Thanksgiving [: yay shopping.